I’ve said it before, but since my offspring has more or less achieved the high holy goals of parenting, which are being potty trained, literate and gainfully employed, I am somewhat free to enjoy my second adolescence.
Now that I have a pretty bad ass replica of Théophile Steinlen’s Chat Noir on my calf, I want one more tat. I will wait until fall/winter time to do it, because in the summer two weeks worth of workouts outside of the pool are just too hot. One bad thing about getting a tat if you prefer aquatic exercise, is you can’t get in the pool for two weeks until the tat is pretty much healed.
I have a DNR on file- meaning that I do not want to be resuscitated should my heart stop and I’m on my way to the Dirt Nap. No heroics. If it’s time for me to die, let my sorry carcass go. I don’t want to live through a dramatic resuscitation effort only to suck up resources for years- being chronically ill and mindlessly drooling away in some nursing home if that can at all be avoided. Having one’s DNR tattooed on one’s left chest area (on Hello Kitty’s dress no less- and I’ll have the lettering done in either bright red or black so it’s even more obvious) should drive the point home.
I figure if I’m going to die anyway, why prolong the process? Maybe it’s a morbid thought, but I want people to be crystal clear that it’s fine by me to keep me off the machines and to let me just die with some comfort and dignity.
I have to try to get a better outlook. Granted there have been some incidents in the recent past that have completely pissed me off and demoralized me but I’ve gone through a lot worse. I may not have much but I do have a healthy sarcastic streak, and comedy is indeed the flipside of tragedy.
I have to change this stuff.
I’ve fallen back into the age old pattern of letting people simply walk all over me. It’s bad that I’m so used to being a doormat that I have to consciously think about confronting people when they are just plain being assholes. What is so wrong about calling out the conspicuous douchebag? I’m sure that my megadouche detection skills are just as good if not better than most people’s, given that I have had exposure to more than my fair share of megadouches in my lifetime.
This is what I want to say to Jerry when he whines about food. Unfortunately, when he isn’t in the mood for the entreé du soir, it means I either end up going out for subs or to the Chinese joint for his hineyness. Last week I got to get him a sub, and then a replacement sub, when the zit faced high school kids working the evening shift at Jersey Mike’s committed the unforgivable sin: his Philly cheese steak had green peppers on it. You’d have thought it was anthrax the way he reacted to a few green peppers. They weren’t even the hot peppers, which if you ask me are quite nice on a Philly cheese steak, among a plethora of other things. But green peppers? If you don’t like them, pick them off. As rude as Jerry is in restaurants, green peppers are the least of his worries. I bet fast food workers see condescending assholes like Jerry from a mile away.
I’m sure Jerry’s gotten things far worse than a few green peppers on his sandwiches. Saliva, semen and boogers come to mind. I understand the longing for passive-aggressive revenge more than most. I might not actually perpetrate vengeful acts, but I fantasize about them a lot.
If thinking about passive-aggressive revenge is just as bad as actually perpetrating it, I’m in big trouble.